** This post is dedicated to the Spirits guiding this unity and to ....
Sue Letwin of Indicapable for being exactly what I need in a fellow seeker, friend, sister.
Rebecca Short for confirming what I knew all this time & for giving us all permission to believe.
Today is the first day of my higher frequency & positive life.
A visual came showing me that I have been literally in the ditch digging shovels upon shovels of crap up into full view.
The thought was that if others saw what I see, things would naturally change.
Ideally, I would eventually climb out & begin to do something with the shovels of crap I'd piled beside the trench.
But I don't because when I think about doing it, I get the krakken around my throat which makes me immediately want to give up trying because it feels like I can't breath.
Many years ago I named my depression--that many tentacled power that hides itself from view by internalizing just under my skin ready to erupt the second I feel the angst.
I see now that the Krakken thrives in that angst.
If angst were relative humidity, the Krakken would be FRESH as a 58 as we say at Boveda.
The minute I attempt to pull out it grabs on.
I learned yesterday in my Psychedelic therapy class that an emotion literally lasts for about 90 seconds.
In that 90 seconds of thinking that I CAN'T, the Krakken wins time & time again dammit.
I'm retiring my shovel friends ... and pickin' up the highest frequency I can muster until it becomes the norm.
Thing is, I can already sort of feel and see this reality crumbling.
I'm finding people ~ and people are finding me.
Unity has begun & I am finally following my bliss Joseph!
Let's do this 👁